have you ever??

have you ever...

keep thinking about something stupid that you did it just now or long time ago?

for me

im always always always did that

when im think about it

i just smile shyly 

keep talking "ish stupid stupid stupid' 

geleng kepala laju2 and say nooo

knock my head

talking by myself

all the weird thing la

have you ever do that?

=P

that woman

A woman loves you.

                                                                             The woman loves you wholeheartedly.

She follows you around like a shadow every day.

She smiles but is actually crying.

How much longer do I just have to look at you, alone.

This love that came like wind,

This love that is like a shit,

If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer 

just a little bit.

Please don’t step back

I, the one who loves you,

is still next to you.

That woman is crying.

That woman is very shy

So she learnt how to smile

Her heart is so full of tear,

She can't even share her story with her best friend

That's why, that woman loved you

Cause you were so like her another fool.

yet another fool

Please give me a hug before you leave me

I want to be loved, dear.

That's all I wanted

She shouts, just in her heart

just in her heart.

No one can hear her

but that woman is still next you

Do you know that

I am that woman?

You don't do you?

Because you are just a fool.

how much how much longer

Do I have to love you like this

This love that is like a fool

This love that is like a shit

would you love me?

That woman, who loves youis still next you

and she is still crying.

thanks to you

specially wrote this to my ABAH. 

thank you

cause be the first man that i love

cause be the first man that hold my hand

cause you always make smile even when you made me cry

cause teach me something that i cant learn from book

cause always filled what i want

cause never make me feel that im not alone

cause always listen what i wanna say

for carrying me on your back when we had a walk

for the support when im loose

for always let me be the winner

for always defend me even when i was wrong

for the tears that you make for me

for the smile when you here with me

for be the one who saw me when everyone didnt see me

for the best memory that i had

for be the one who cant be replace

for be my DAD

thank you ABAH

here my abah
handsome rite?

when he fight for you

what should you do

when he fight for you

should you stay

or just run away

what should i say

when he steal my heart away

still standing there

or pretend that i dont care

what should i do

when im in love with you

confess whats on my heart

wishing this is the start

what should i feel

when you say  your love is not for me

tell myself its gonna be okay

just hide my tears and slowly fade away

HAVING A COKE WITH YOU :')

HAVING A COKE WITH YOU

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona

partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary

it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

lucky sem

im smiling alot now

when i got problem

i'll always tell myself  " IT JUST GAME TIME"

its true

semua nie permainan masa ja

just bersabar dan ikhlas

"TUHAN SEDANG BERBICARA DENGAN MU"

that totally correct

ingat kata2 hikmat nie bila ada musibah

now mylife turning from GREY -> GREAT -> AWESOME

i hope this thing last forever

just feel myself having a bit of luckier

and i like it

hope this lucky thing with me forever

if it not

maybe GOD planning a better thing for

BELIEVE IT and LIVE IT

jangan kejar kejayaan

just jadi orang yg cemerlang

then kejayaan yg akan kejar kita  

(>_<)

me and my bestie

credits to BELLA 

:)

for the first time

wooooooppp

bahagianya

ingatkan nk kna BOOO

but sebaliknya

org clap hand like crazy even my voice quite bad 

if and only if i had a microphone

but its okay

thanks for everyone who support me

for the first time aku rasa ada org appreciate my song, my music and me

credit to ASPA, DANIEL, FAKH, AWIE and so on

even korang baru part 1

but korang the best la

thanks for invite me join band korang

thanks sesangat

yeyyeye

story about someone

I’ve once promised myself ‘ if he not the one, i never  open my heart again until it open by itself. I know its all my mistake, i shouldnt have fell to him. I shouldnt have known this, stupid girl. Its all my bad, i just grab n took away their happiness.

If i can vanish myself in this world, i will. If can remove feels of loving you, i will as long as you happy with it, if i can remove all the memory about you in my mind, i will so the things will not like this. If i can go back by time, i will choose for not knowing you at all and tell myself what i know now.

I hate myself more than i hate to face tomorrow.  If i could tell you that im the one who suffer more. no one knew because i hide it with smiles. i have told u rite, the medicine of pain is smile. So, my pain will dissapear. Its okay with me even it just go away for a while. if and only if you can see all this.

Everynight before i go to bed, i’ll pray that we can through the day without pain, tears or pretend to be happy when we’re not. Can i have that day?

If you think avoiding me is the best way to make us happy. You are totally wrong. It just the best way to make you happy and it just the best way to make me in worst condition.  u did’nt see it right? You can’t see through my heart dont you?

But its all okay with me. Its not your fault. Its my fault, i shouldnt have to love you. My mistake is i dont know  to be in love and i never be on it. When you were infront of me, out of the blue i totally blind and deaf. What does it means? I cant explain.  I can tell lies about anything,  but love do not lie to us. Love make someone do anything and give everything. Yes it is.

Everytime i see you pass me by, my tears slowly fall down but i make it fade away so you wont see me crying. Why cant i fight this tears? Dont you know It hurts when we feel we wanna cry but we cant. Something that make our heart in pain and heavy. What should i do cause i dont know how to be fine when im not.

We shared a lot of things and it seem easy to you to get rid of me from yourlife but im a half death to do it and i cant do it. Even i barely breath, but i still try to breath. Even i forgot how to smile, but why i have to cry?.

Love has kills me ones, when i know im not the one in your heart. Yes you are the sun but why i lost my shine.  

Now it kill me twice, when you bring rain here. im half dead girl with no light in her heart.

Outspoken, meningless life, out of light and she dont know who and what else she can believe  because her life seems fake. Yes I hope it fake and just a dream so when i wake up from this dream, i can smile with you again.

                                                                                                                                          =') C/P